Think about it.

Back in the day, everyone assumed that the more tv channels you had, the more awesome life would become. The truth of it? There isn't enough good writing or production out there to warrant having so many channels. So in the end, we have to sift through a bunch of crap to get to anything worth seeing.

Back in the day, everyone assumed that being able to look up anything, socialize with anywhere, etc. would be an awesome thing to have at the tips of your fingers. The truth of it? The more "connected" today's youth becomes, the more disaffected today's youth becomes.

Following that line of reasoning, having the widest window to the world that is conceivable- would actually bring altogether new levels of suck.

So, I randomly had a revelation today.

I can never date a deaf girl. Why? Because every time she asked me what I was up to, and I expressed "listening to music"? I would suddenly feel bad.

So, someone from my graduating class died this morning. His doctor yesterday gave him about 24 hours.

I am reminded of my own mortality more than I have been in a long time.

In the grand stylings of the way Kristendigicrys goes over this, thus shall I.

Massive drama at the start of the year -----
The continuation of said drama, for a very, very extended period of time ---
Get Smart +
Wall-E ++
The Dark Knight +
Iron Man +
Horton Hears A Who +
Finally seeing Fight Club ++
Nearly not graduating -----
Buying my senior year book +
Realizing that I was not looking forward to post high school, and would rather go back and redo the previous ~6 years ----
Camping with Kristen ++++
My friends hanging out to celebrate my birthday ---
Spending time in Kristen's apartment +++
Spending the night ++
Attending LCC -
Finally getting a job +
Subsequently realizing that you're treated roughly the same as the machines you run at said job ---
Wrath of the Lich King ++
Being arrested for a crime I didn't commit, and all of the subsequent trauma due to certain conditions ----------
Obama got elected +++
Depression let up a fair amount +++
Anxiety did the exact opposite, however ---
Discovering much in the way of music, movies, and comics +++
Losing touch with most friends --
Finding out that said friends did a complete 180 on who they were in high school ---
Improvements in relationship, making right now the closest thing I've ever had to what I would call a healthy relationship +++++
A lot of the internet losing its sense of humor ---

Positives: 35
Negatives: 45

Despite the fact that it was such a bad year overall, I'm optimistic about the next one. A lot of the negative was associated with high school, and that chapter of my life is mostly behind me, with only a few ghosts here and there.

FEARS!
[X] public speaking
[] staying single forever
[] Rejection
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[X] heights
[] dogs
[] fish
[] spiders
[] flowers or other plants
[] that Scary guy...
[] being touched
[] fire
[X] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[X] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls (those really old creepy ones, you know which ones i mean)
[] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[] growing up
[] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secret

Final Total: 4



If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of __ out of 75 common fears.

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
{{{If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.}}}
People who don’t have any are liars.

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I'm fearless? Really? Something tells me this is inaccurate.

Well... that was probably the single most interesting night of my life.

( Cut for extensivity in the length department )

This is a picture of my cat.  She was around for every day of my life since I was one year old. I have known her longer than I have known anyone or anything- outside of my parents and a few more distant relatives. Today this is over. She was very old, obviously (18, if you can't do math or don't know my age), and had her share of old age issues- blind, deaf and arthritic. Still, at the same time that I'm glad she doesn't have to deal with these things any more- it makes me sad that this had to come.

Yes, I am getting emotional over a cat. Although it's excusable, I think. Our pets are more a part of our home than almost anything else. They're the only ones we can count on not to judge us when we're being candid, they're warm when the evenings are cold, etc.

But not today.

Dear diary, today something that really sucks happened.

So, I was walking to class... la la la, and I saw several of my friends from high school. So, I walked up to them.... and then realized something. Every single one of them was smoking. >_< Now, to some people, I can see where this wouldn't be a big deal, but for me? I was shocked and disgusted. I felt like I would throw up on the spot. Back in high school, these people were cool. They seemed to give a damn about their lives. And here we are, a paltry four months later.... and it's like they're completely different people.

Essentially, one of the few pillars of optimism left in my life (at least I still have my friends, and they're still awesome) has just been shattered.

Someone please tell me how to cope? Or just come to my house, slap me, and say "get over it you whiny little emo bitch"

Stolen from someone who stole it from someone else. Every post is a repost is a repost...
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If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!

Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal.



01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

You know what makes for wonderfully good times? Being awake until 4:00 AM due to the moon shining through your window too brightly. Yay for physical pain brought on by lack of sleep.

*grumbles*

*dies*

ehh, I was averse to it. But I was told to post it, so yeah.

One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind that you're not so bad in other people's eyes after all.

First of all, my opinion of the movie: Very, very good. Personally, it's not a masterpiece (my idea of a masterpiece movie is one that could honestly not be improved upon, and this one could), but it's pretty damn close.

So yeah, I took Kristen to go see this movie yesterday, we showed up an hour before the 3:40 showing to buy our tickets (we were afraid that if we left it too long, they would be sold out) and headed across the street to the mall until roughly 3:15. When we got back to the theater? There was a line to get in that wrapped almost all the way around the inside of the lobby area; which honestly wasn't that bad, considering that when we got out? The line for the next showing extended out the door and into the parking lot fifteen or so yards.


In the end, it's the combination of the acting, the characters themselves, and the atmosphere that the movie gives off that really win me over.

[x] the dark
[] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[x] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 2

[x] being touched
[] fire
[x] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[x] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[x] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's dad
[] boyfriend's/girlfriend's mom
[] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 7

[] rain
[] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes

Total so far: 10

[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[] growing up

Total so far: 11

[x] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secrets

Final Total: 12

... if you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it "I'm afraid of __ out of 72 common fears."

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars

Hung out with my girlfriend almost all day. Without other people bothering us (much). This was the first time in nearly a month.

It was really refreshing and made me happy in a way I can't say I've been in a pretty long while. ... yeah, that's all for today.

I fucking hate myself. Just thought I'd share that little tidbit what all of you.

Stolen from silentaustin

I posted a while back, freaking out about my Trigenometry grade. As of today, I passed that class and will, in fact, be able to walk at commencement on Sunday. It should also be noted that my grade in the class was something like a 59.55 or some such. Which is a shame, I kind of wish it was an exact 59.5 if only because then I could claim I really DID do the minimum the class required.


Anyway, my parents were all "congrats! :D" and I was all "meh, I told you I would"


... yeah.